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| recap: philisophical traditions of asia, history of rock music, k-pop, j-pop, opms, kimerald, lancaster in vegas, 30 seconds of the superbowl, birthday parties every weekend, the usual choirness, and work monday through friday.
wheww, it's been quite the last few weeks. :P haha, but i'd like to say that i'm fortunate to have so much going on in my life. i've got my classes going again, i've got work five days a week, i've got my usual choir wednesdays / some sundays, and i've got my super sweet family to chill with. my future's looking bright, and i'd like it no other way. :D it's a lovely feeling when you've got so much to look forward to, and so much ahead of you that you don't even know about yet. it's times like these that plans in progress are completed, and bigger, better, and newer plans arise. it's just an exciting moment in my life right now. haha. i don't know why. i'm just super happy. maybe it's just that i haven't been at work for the last two days? nahh.. i just have a feeling that things are going to be great. :] from here on out, there's only good sights to see.
"don't look back. there's no tomorrow behind you." - sakura sake, arashi
things to do:
unlv - registrar, advisor
work - days off!
shows - in march
car - stereo, leak, bumper, hood, heater
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| so, i'd have to say, life is all right. but everything has the potential to be better. so, what's holding everything back? my life is simple. there isn't anything extravagant about it, there isn't anything complex, and it isn't anything difficult to get through.
today, someone at work told me to "voice my opinion". i do. what happens to my opinion? it gets put back behind the bigger and better issues to take care of and it collects dust and gets lost. yeeeahhh. voice my opinion, huh? i think that people are listening to me, but really, i have to go through someone else to get it heard. but that's like undermining authority. you'd think that people would be smarter. i mean, in a place filled with educated individuals, it's funny how one can't see that it's time for a change. i don't expect to incorporate bigger and better procedures and rules into what i already know if it's not going to benefit me. yep, this is me drawing the line. it's always been, "okay, i'll do it if it's going to make everyone happy." or "all right, if it's going to put us on top!" but.. how about me? i'm benefiting the team as a whole. but i'm part of the team. when will i, individually, get rewarded for the hard work that i have provided to the team? not everyone contributes the same amount of effort. yet, in a world comprised of un-individuals as part of one bigger entity, i'm just a shadow. just a tiny little shadow behind the big shiny stars. i'm tired of this pat-on-the-back-you-deserve-a-cookie! crap. i wanna be a star. a bigger and better star. cuz all the existing ones are burning out. :] and i won't burn out. i'm just unburnoutable. :D
and, i think that i'm kind of sad on the inside. yeah. right around the left and right ventricles. that's all on that note.
but mostly, i'm kind of going to be in a good mood all the time. :] it's going to be fantastic.
schools getting back on track, even though i was supposed to graduate this semester.. :[ but whatever, as long as i graduate. :D yep, so if you have some extra cash lying around, donate to the leah-needs-some-munnies-for-school fund! you can pay directly to me. hahaha.
oh, and i spent a week and a half glued to the computer. result? VIRUS FREE! :D wee. i'm so great. haha jk.
all right, thanks for your interest in my mind's mindings. :] you're so lovely.
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| have you ever become silent and just listen to your surroundings? ..only speaking the words that are necessary to get through the day? i did that today. i held back all negative speech, and decided to speak only what was positive, and anything else that would've gotten me through my day. i've found that it's hard to have a conversation, or even to want to have a conversation, when all the words that surround you are insulting to someone or something. more than half of what i heard today wasn't constructive at all. just criticism. turn the corner, you hear a complaint. walk a few steps, you hear a hint of jealousy. walk through the door, feelings of disgust. i wonder, how long it will take for people to grow up out of that zone? will they ever stop and see how much good there is in their lives? most of the people i know focus on the bad things. i know that i've been in that zone for a while, but i've decided to change that.
"light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness. although a tear, may be ever so near, that's the time, you must keep on trying.. smile, what's the use of crying? you'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just smile."
really though, smile. it'll turn things around, i promise. focus on those few things that brightened up your day. forget all the worries, the sadness, the frustration, and open your heart to all those things that made you smile. tell me how the rain made you happy, how the sunshine made your day brighter, how that color makes you feel great. or even how that song makes you giddy. just have a good day. it'll make you smile. it'll make me smile, too. because i want you to have that. a good day. even if everyone else in the world is out to get you, i want you to have a good day. ex that, i want you to have a lovely, wonderful, splendid, great, amazing, awesome day. from the bottom of my heart. :]
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| i can't sleep. so i'm watching star wars. it's the part where they're in the garbage masher and it's reminding me of the family guy episode where they do a parody of the movie. haha. :P so yeah, i can't sleep. mainly because i fell asleep right after work at 5pm and didn't wake up till 9pm. and, paying for school was bothering me. haha so i paid for school. =/ so much for all those days i worked over the holidays. and i still have to get my books too. :[ oh well, it's all to better my future. whatever.
life is good. it's a new year, so i decided that life is good. :] i'm gonna keep this up as long as i can, because frankly, my days are more exciting this way.
i hope a lot of good things happen this year:
fix all the broken stuff on my car,
get moved up to senior tech or get a better paying job,
get back on track with school,
start volunteering,
get out of las vegas for a bit,
& just be more productive.
any more good things are welcomed. :]
welps, i gotta work at 7:30.. about 5 hours from now haha.. and the movie is almost over. :P so, for you kiddies that read this, thanks for being interested, haha. and hopefully you'll contribute to the good things that'll happen in my life. :D
happy new year! :]
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| let's take it back. take it back to when christmas was actually like "the christmas song". take it back to when the hours were counted till christmas got here. take it back to when the little children left cookies and milk by the fireplace and kept their ears open for footsteps on their rooftops. take it back to when everyone had an armful of presents, faces full of smiles, and hearts full of love. let's take it back to what christmas used to be.
because this christmas isn't going to be like the others. for whatever reason.. it isn't merry, it isn't bright. it's just december 25th. where did all the joy, the laughter, and the love go? what happened to all the excitement? it's not because we're getting old. it's not because we've grown out of it. it's something more. something more that's different for everyone.. but still, something more.
let's turn this all around. there's still so many hours until christmas is swept away by the time, so let's spread some love. spread some hugs, kisses, joy, laughter. let's make it bright. make it shine. make it sparkle. let's quit the heartaches. let's throw away the arguments. let's take back the complaints and disgusts. just bundle everything up in happiness and give it to all you know and meet. it's okay if you have no presents. that's not what christmas is all about. put on a smile, give away a hug.
it's christmas time. let's celebrate it and make it true.
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